Tuesday, February 9, 2010

i am sorry . but i need some space to vent my anger on. maybe not anger. but emotions. this is where i hide when i am down and out.

I am not even happy now. If you think i am happy in the current school, then i am telling you no i am not. fucking not happy there. Alot of assignments to be completed , alot of things to study. i cannot catch up. i seriously cannot . and if you think the school standard is high, look again, it is not. see my class. they are not up to any standards. exccept for some. Even if i look as if nothing is happening to me in school , think i am happy, fucked off. i don even have my own time. assignments alone already take up so much of my time already. and for that CNY first day i've got to meeet one of them to do the powerpoint. i kinda cant find anytime out like that. i don even have the time to go get my CNY things. not even clothes. to mention i haven even shop for things. hope they don take my thurs away. if not i am sure dead. things not bought yet and everything is like so last min can . i hate to do things last min and stuff like that. i do have my own life to go on. and school taken most of my commitment down. not to even mention time for r.s and stuff. i don think i will be attached or wad for the 3 fucking years in shatec. fine fine.

when he wrote on his FB first girlfriend, my heart suddenly just dropped like as if the glass is dropped on the floor. heart just hurts and i need time to heal this pain in me . i am sorry to be very emotional on FB .

what we could have been, 8:11 AM.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

If you could even seee the letters, try figuring out wad does it means uh. Nah it don means anything. its a name :) ppl who is close to me knows how to fix this puzzle up and make it to the name i was trying to do. LOL! This wasn't done on purpose to make you guess. but it was when i was bored at night last month or last 2 months. Story goes like that , one of the nights when i saw a cover . aiyah something lah. so i just writting the name on it, ( common sense is because i miss the person thats why i even wrote his name in the middle of the night. kinda ) . so i was having fun writting and cutting, thn the idea of it came to my mind. decide to take a picture of it obviously thats why i even post :) but kinda forgotton that i wanted to post up but in the end now i see the picture then i posted it up :) anw have fun guessing the nae then :) its easy to those who were close with me :)

what we could have been, 11:12 PM.

okay . i guesss this is going to be emotional post. This few days i've been thinking alot alot. I kinda missing him alot. i wished that moment were longer. i wished that moment were forever. don think he read my blog anymore. so kinda safe to post here. not that i was unwilling to kiss him. i can be so willing to kisss him but i just don wanna make him guilty. well well in another word to say i just kinda cant leave the feeling alone. wadever . blog update done.

what we could have been, 9:32 AM.